Welcome
I did a bit of rearranging, so to my usual readers, I’m sorry if this new layout irks you. Let me know, I might change it back.
For all you new to the site, I write primarily about my own experiences being Bipolar type 1 with rapid cycling and psychosis. I also have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, and maybe ADHD thrown in there as well. From time to time, I try to make it at least once a week, I’ll post some research on bipolar disorder or other mental health subjects. Even rarer, I’ll do some philosophy or science related. But those are usually on slow days when I’m not feeling like blogging about myself.
As an intro to what I’m currently talking about, I’ve recently experienced a psychotic mania. One day I was quivering with energy and cutting my arms. It finally culminated in me experiencing paranoid delusions, I thought hundreds of invisible people were watching me in my apartment. So I did the irrational thing and grabbed a knife with some boxes and was going to board up the windows. Thankfully, something in my mind flipped and I called my psychiatrist. This all happened on October 20th. I’ve been in recovery since then. For a while, I was on 20mg of abilify, 10mg of zyprexa, 200mg of lamictal, 2mg of klonopin, and titrating doses of lithium. I’m now off of abilify and waiting to go off of zyprexa. That should get you up to speed on where I’m at personally. Getting back to normal is my primary focus, so most of what I am currently writing is on this experience and getting to normal.
That’s it for now, I hope you enjoy my blog.
Thank you for this. I have been reading your blog for a while an really appreciate it. I have just started writing about my own experiences with bipolar and depression and find it difficult to be honest and transparent. You are an inspiration. Thank you.
Hi James,
I like the new layout and indeed the intro.
I am really sorry about what you have been going through and indeed about the arm cutting. As a self-harmer myself I know how much damage that can do physically and emotionally. Thankfully i haven’t done so for a while.
I just want to encourage you in your efforts and your blogging. I really en joy and am often challenged by what you share.
You are in my prayers,
Kevin. from Voices of Glass.
Thanks Kevin, I’m touched by what you have said. I will try to keep up the blogging as long as my mind holds out.
Thank you for visiting my blog. I’ve only been doing this for a week and a half and it is still thrilling when I get visits. I am so glad you had that momentary spark of sanity that allowed you to call your psychiatrist. Those little sparks are so often what save our lives. I was lucky to have one and it is the sole reason I am still here. I’ll be following your blog and your consequent recovery. Best wishes,
Russ
It’s amazing how those sparks of clarity can appear at the worst times, isn’t it? I’m glad you managed to call your psychiatrist, and are in recovery. Baby steps, and I truly wish the best for you.
I’ve nominated you for a blogging award – http://halfwaybetweenthegutter.wordpress.com/2011/12/19/an-award/
You don’t have to participate, but just wanted to let you know.
I wanted to let you know I’ve nominated you for the Kreativ Blogger Award. If you want to participate, the rules are on this post:
http://mindfuckery.wordpress.com/2011/12/30/the-kreativ-blogger-award/
I just discovered your blog from another that you had commented on.. Im now following you and looking forward to reading more!! I hope things get better for you…
I’ve just always wanted to tell you how much I respect you. You’re so honest and open about your life and your struggles that it blows me away. There’s a reason you’re a top health blogger and nominated for so many things. Like all before me I wish you the best of wishes and may the road rise up to meet you.
Hey, just wanted to let you know I nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award.
http://mindfuckery.wordpress.com/2012/01/08/versatile-blogger-award/
I am a fellow blogger and have just been awarded “The Versatile Blogger” award by another blogger. (Please understand that I know little about it but am grateful to have been awarded it.)
As far as I can make out it is an award given by bloggers to other bloggers whose work/blogs they appreciate.
Part of getting this award is that you have to pass it along to 15 recently discovered blogs you enjoy reading.
Since I have visited your blog a few times now and really enjoyed it (albeit that I normally prefer to just read it and then leave, I thought I would award this award to you also as the author of a blog I enjoy reading.
I have also, as part of this, detailed your blog on one of my blogs “Voices of Glass” http://voicesofglass.com/2012/01/10/yay-an-awar-now-that-is-somewhat-bemusing/
I hope you don’t mind and understand that I really do enjoy your blog which is why I included it in my list.
Kind Regards,
Kevin.
Hey James. I haven’t seen a post written by you in awhile. Hope you are doing well.
hey there.. I have nominated you for the Versatile Blogger award.. come see this post to learn more.. thanks http://www.bipolar2happiness.com/more-versatile-blogger-awards/